And How Does That Make You Feel

Do you know what one of the most lovely feelings in the world is? It's waking up on a Saturday morning, but at first you don't realize it's a Saturday morning and you start thinking you're going to have to drag yourself out of your warm, cozy bed and into the shower and into the office and into another long day. And then your brain goes wait, is it Saturday?, and then nah, I don't think so, and then no, come on, actually I think it IS, and all of this happens in only a few seconds, and when it happens you're neither awake nor asleep. And then when suddenly you realize that yes, yes, yes, it's Saturday---it's glorious, glorious Saturday and you can sleep in for as long as your little heart desires---well then, THAT, Internet, is one of the most lovely feelings in the world.

But there are other lovely feelings, of course. There is the one where you wake up from an atrocious dream and feel your body slowly flood with relief as you realize that hey, your parents aren't divorcing, your cat didn't get hit by the mail truck. There is the one where the phone rings in the middle of the night and you shoot straight up in bed, heart hammering, brain fearing the worst, and then it turns out that it's just some drunk dude trying to order a pizza at 3am. There is the one where you walk into a room and everyone there is someone you know and love and there they all are, all in one place. There is the one where you land in a strange airport or bus station or ferry terminal before the sun has even risen and you're tired and disoriented and you probably don't even have any money, but who cares, you've got the whole day stretched out ahead of you to explore. 

But I'm probably forgetting some, aren't I, in the list of lovely feelings? Feel free to add your own and we'll knit a whole web of them, a whole web of relief and excitement and heady anticipation. There's a kind of peace in tiny moments like this, you know, a quiet happiness that's inexplicable unless you know what you're looking for.

Oct 08, 2008

When I get in the car, turn on the radio and one of my favorite songs begins just as I start to drive. That's a nice one.

Camels & Chocolate
Oct 08, 2008

Along the dream lines, I've had a repetitive dream where Scott and I get in big fight and then I wake up being pissed off at him. Anytime, I'm not in the best of moods in the morning, he'll ask, "was I mean in your dream again?" Um, that's so NOT a lovely feeling. And I'm too tired and my feet too sore to think of one right now...

Camels & Chocolate
Oct 08, 2008

Oh! I've got it! When you have a whole long month of daily looming deadlines and all of a sudden it's Friday! And you're going on vacay for 16 days! And you aren't taking your computer or your CrackBerry and will be completely disconnected the whole time. Now THAT is a grand feeling. (Can't wait to experience it Friday night...until then it's going to be a couple of all-nighters, I fear!)

Oct 08, 2008

1. Speaking from recent experience: The mad flow of love from friends & family on my birthday (and other days, too... but it's always fun to hear from everyone I know on one day!).

2. After a long, trying day, there's no better satisfaction then crawling into bed and letting my head hit the pillow.

House of Jules

Oct 09, 2008

There is the one when you have someone there at the airport to meet you for once, the one when you buy the plane ticket to the place you're finally getting to visit, the one when you lay with your head in that hollow that there is in a man's shoulder, the one when you read something new to you that startles you with its beauty, the one when those jeans that had gotten a little tight actually fit again, and of course the one when you remember there's ice cream in the freezer (helping you to later get to feel the jeans thing over again, after the ice cream has caused them to become tight again.)

Oct 09, 2008

Oh, in the vein of Camels & Chocolate #1, waking up mad at your other because of something he's done in your dream. It's straight out of an Anne Tyler novel. "But honey, I never!" "Yes, but it's just the sort of thing you would go off and do."

Being the mom of three kids aged 7 and under, mostly I dream about bad things happening to them, and then I wake up and go count heads just to be certain and they all are here. Those may not be good dreams but certainly they are good results.

Oct 09, 2008

* When someone you don't know very well looks straight into your eyes, smiles and says something lovely

* When your students finally learn that thing they've been struggling with for months and quietly smile to themselves all day

* When you walk past dicey corner-loiterers, mentally preparing to be hassled and they say "That's a pretty dress, Miss."

* Exchanging waves with wee kiddos in neighboring cars

* Holding several kittens/puppies AT ONCE!

What a lovely post, Holly!

Oct 09, 2008

*Going to bed on freshly laundered and ironed cotton sheets

*Having a baby fall asleep on you, its breath on the side of your neck, its head nestled against the curve of your shoulder

*When you get awoken with kisses on the back of your neck in the morning

*Burying fingers deep into the fur of a purring cat

*The union of free time and superficial magazines

Oct 09, 2008

Peeing at night, half asleep, suddenly worrying whether you actually got out of bed or not. Pinching your arm, trying to blink and then - thankfully - realising you did indeed get out of bed, and that there is no cold surprise on the way. (Other than your feet when you get back under the covers.)

Oct 09, 2008

Hearing my 3-year old nephew hit the ground running as he comes outside, yelling, "Hi, Aunt Sarah!! Wanna play with me?!" to meet me when I pull up in the driveway. It's pure happy...

Oct 09, 2008

Getting the mail and finding a personal letter tucked in with the bills and pizza ads.

Oct 09, 2008

When you're hungry for something sweet and you remember that you have a miniature custard of creme brulee in your fridge. That is an AWESOME feeling.

Oct 09, 2008

When you put on a coat from last season and you find five dollars in one of the pockets.

Oct 09, 2008

Having a long laugh with your oldest friend without even having to vocalize what's so funny.

Oct 09, 2008

Smelling the back of your baby's neck, even though he's not a baby anymore, while you snuggle up for story time.
Wrapping the scarf you just knitted around your neck and feeling foolishy utterly proud of yourself.
Driving down one of those roads where the trees line either side and almost meet in the middle, so it's like a beautiful tree tunnel, and the sun dapples over you and everything is green and golden.
Driving home from the beach and a thunderstorm starts as you pull away, all warm and sandy and ice cream sticky. I love that feeling so much.

Oct 09, 2008

When my husband, for no reason, comes up behind me and starts playing with my hair.

When something at the register rings up for less than you thought it would.

Making that final car payment/ credit card payment/ etc.

Meeting one of your favorite internet blog friends for the first or second time. (later this month w00t!)

Oct 09, 2008

Pulling into the driveway to pick up my son from daycare.

Calling my sister for one little thing and talking to her for an hour.

Watching the dog fetch a ball from the lake and shaking out to dry off then the eager eyes to fetch again.

Walking a little after a long run.

Oct 09, 2008

I agree on the one about finding unexpected money in your pocket. LOVE that!
Finding out that your favorite brand of something is on sale at the store, and you didn't know it.
For that matter, getting to the register and finding out something is 30% off and you didn't know it.
Putting on an old pair of pants and all of a sudden they're loose.

Oct 09, 2008

OMG Holly you are reading my mind! The Saturday morning "I just realized that I don't have to get up" feeling is by far, the BEST and my all-time favorite! Fabulous post as always :)

She Likes Purple
Oct 09, 2008

One of my favorite feelings is when, on some random Wednesday night, as my husband and I are splayed out on the couch---he watching Mythbusters or something else on Discovery and me typing a blog post or browsing or reading---I look up and his leg is on mine or his hand is on my knee, and I realize that I'm sharing my life with him. As cheesy and ridiculous as it sounds, I never thought I'd be so fortunate to feel so comfortable and at ease and so damn lucky to be with another person.

Also, when co-workers bring in breakfast, and I had just thought I could use a calorie-filled donut or Danish.

Or when I find cash in my purse/pocket that I didn't remember having.

That feeling just after everything in your house is clean and as it should be, and you can collapse on the touch and treat yourself to a glass of something or a trashy TV show and not feel an ounce of guilt b/c you know you earned the right to be lazy and there's nothing around you that really needs to be done.

And, yes, getting something unexpected and personal in the mail.

jive turkey
Oct 09, 2008

1. Oooh, I second the one about going to sleep in freshly laundered sheets.

2. This is one from childhood, but that warm, thorough exhaustion after spending the day swimming at the pool with your friends.

3. The peace once the plane reaches its cruising altitude, when all the rush and stress of preparing for the trip and getting to the airport is finally over.

4. Similarly, taking off on a really cloudy day, and then bursting through the clouds into blue sky & sunshine.

5. Paying someone a genuine compliment and being able to tell that it means a lot to them.

This post & comments are great. Thanks, Holly.

Oct 09, 2008

As a child...
-The first day of school and the new clothes, paper, a fresh box of crayons and the excitement of a new year.
-The last day of school and that wonderful sense of freedom

As an adult...
-The first day at a new job and the anticipation of all the potential.
-Spontaneous happy hour on the first warm Friday afternoon of Spring on the patio of my favorite bar with friends.
-Visiting my mom and she makes my favorite childhood foods because she still knows what I like.
-Waking up in the morning and realizing that my husband got up early to make me breakfast and greet me with coffee

Oct 09, 2008

When you're sitting in the kitchen bundled up in your robe drinking coffee or tea, just as the sun is making the sky lighter, and while you sit and start to feel awake, a corner of the sun streams into the window.

Oct 09, 2008

this post was so simple but one of my favorites of yours-each of these moments I can totally relate to. wow so great

Oct 09, 2008

A first kiss.

When you tax return hits your bank account.


Oct 09, 2008

The feeling you get when you are awakened in the dead of night to your child's scream, you jump out of bed and rush to check on them thankfully to discover they are sound asleep and safe in bed and you realize the scream was a thread in your dream.

The feeling you get when your child tells you it was a great day because it was a day in his life and life is great.

The feeling you get when you need a hug from someone who loves you and someone who loves you drives to where you are just to give you a hug.

The feeling you get when your father spends time with your son because your son needs a strong, loving male role model and your father loves your son more than words can say.

The feeling you get when you recall, as a child, your father holding your toes in the car and making the world safe and bright.

The feeling you get when your son tells you he thinks you look beautiful no matter what anyone else says.

Oct 09, 2008

This is probably silly, but when I feel obligated to post on my blog cause it's been a couple days, and I stare at the blank screen and have NO CLUE what I'm going to write about, so I just start writing...and 20 minutes later I have this post that I'm utterly proud of and that almost made me cry just writing it.

Also, in two weeks I'm picking someone up at the airport that I've never met but have become quite enamored with. I suspect that first meeting will feel very wonderful.

Mrs. Who
Oct 09, 2008

When you are at a party with your husband and someone makes a comment and you look at each other and laugh because that comment made you remember something together. And you know what the other is thinking. I love that feeling.

Oct 09, 2008

And it's even better when that letter that was hiding between the bills and pizza ads has a check with no strings from your favourite uncle!!

And having a safe place to spell favoUrite with a U and not have that obnoxious spell check red line squiggle all over it.


Oct 09, 2008

Walking to class at 7:30am, when there's this perfect, still silence because all the other students are either sleep-walking or listening to their mp3 players, and the sun is golden on the grass.

I hate eight am classes... but I love the walk there.

Lovely post, Holly!

Oct 09, 2008

I don't know whose comment it was, above, but the one about approaching shady corner-loiterers who then tell you "nice dress, Miss" made me smile. That has happened to me a couple times.

It reminds me of another good thing: when you look over at another car, while irritated or tired in traffic, and someone else meets your eye and smiles at you.

Oct 09, 2008

My favorite feeling in the whole world is waking up from a long nap on the beach, hearing the sound of kids playing with the waves, feeling the sandy touch of the beach, having that generell blissful ease of vacation and smelling my own sun-soaked skin.

Oct 09, 2008

Crunching through the leaves in fall when it's just cool enough to wear that big sweater you've been missing with a great vest and scarf, but not so cold that your nose turns red and you have to quint against the wind.

Hopefully, those leaves are along the Seine, too!

Oct 09, 2008

The moment when you realize you're finally over your latest wrenching heartbreak...and you're okay.

(Nowhere near that, yet. Still waiting, longing for it. Thanks for this list. Made me smile for the first time all day.)

Oct 09, 2008

I agree with so many above - happy hour on the first warm day, a walk in the leaves when it first starts to cool, hugs from tiny relatives who run outside to see you, sleeping in freshly laundered sheets, the saturday morning realization.

I would add: when we go camping, those minutes late at night when everyone around us has gone to sleep but we are still letting our fire die out and relaxing in complete, comfortable silence.

And, the rush of relief (and freedom!) when you walk out of a hard exam or finish a big presentation. I'm back in grad school, and man, did I forget what that feels like!

Oct 09, 2008

When you've had a long stressful day but then the afternoon frees up and you have a cup of tea that is the perfect blend of milky sugary tea goodness.

Having a great meal in a lovely restaurant and finishing it with a oh so cosmopolitan espresso and.

Knowing you can go home, have a good dinner with a glass of wine, and the Netflix movie is waiting for you. And nothing will interupt.

Sunday night, clean room, clean lavendar scented sheets, everything done and waiting for Monday, old radio shows on NPR.

Oct 09, 2008

AND! having a day off to spend doing silly little errands while everyone else is at work! I covet those days.

Oct 09, 2008

Wow, you've had that "parents getting divorced" dream, too? That one kills me. Also losing my kid in the mall. That one was NOT nice, but it sure was good to wake up and see him safe in his bed in the next room!

One of my favorite feelings ever is a plane taking off from the runway. It's the feeling of excitement and adventure and new experiences. God, I miss traveling!

Operation Pink Herring
Oct 09, 2008

Waking up and realizing that an awful dream isn't real has to be my favorite.

Another great feeling: Walking out on the last day of an awful job, knowing you'll never have to think about any of the headache projects or deal with your awful boss again.

Oct 09, 2008

Sitting in a sunny park with a whole hour to read your book and eat your salt caramels.

Oct 09, 2008

Knowing that in this big world, there are honest people who will return money that isn't theirs.

I cashed my paycheck at the drive up teller and stuck the wad of cash under my thigh (to get out of the way of the next customer) and drove off to work. Upon getting to work, I got out forgetting about the money and it fell out onto the ground. I realized this three hours later and ran out to the mall parking lot to see no money in my car or on the ground. I finally saw a small note that said "Did you lose something?" with a phone number. I can't imagine how many toll charges my parents got given the number of times I called that number. Turns out, it was the work number for a woman who worked for the Welfare Fraud Prevention Department in Oakland. I got the money back after I proved to her it was mine. I can't express how much that impressed me that she didn't keep it or that someone else didn't find it and keep it. I've thought about her a lot over the years and am hoping she is living a VERY good life.

Oct 09, 2008

A long overdue shower when you're extra grimy and dirty from camping/hiking/working around the house all day.

A freshly bleached sink.

Your favorite blogger has a new post. *averting gaze*

Get to work after being gone and you have no new voicemails!

Baby falls asleep on you... love that one.

Waking up in the exact same position you fell asleep.

Getting rockstar parking, somewhere really busy and crowded.

Deciding you're finally going to make that recipe you've been wanting to try and realizing you have ALL the ingredients.

Walking into work an hour late and realize your boss has been in a meeting all morning.

"no pants movie nights" (at home, of course)

Oct 09, 2008

Making sweet potato fries in the kitchen with my husband at the end of a long day, just quietly talking and laughing.

Oct 09, 2008

I love thinking of lovely things ...

I think one of my favorites is being just so utterly exhausted and then sinking into bed, early, with hours and hours of uninterrupted sleep ahead.

Going for a long run on a hot day and coming home to eat and eat; and that first cold sip of water when you get in the door.

Oct 09, 2008

The warm flushing of my cheeks when someone pays me a wonderful compliment.

Oct 09, 2008

Going home and realizing you don't have to worry about what's for dinner tonight, because your mom is making you whatever you want.

Sleeping in on a dark, rainy day.

Oct 09, 2008

These are all perfect, you guys. I agree with pretty much every single one!

Oct 09, 2008

If you could favorite blog posts, I'd favorite this one.

Oct 09, 2008

the feeling right before the first kiss, when you've been friends so long, then your faces get close and you know it's really going to happen.
standing on top of a mountain, endorphins pumping, lungs burning, and consciously letting all your day to day stress go.
seconding rockstar parking feeling and last day of a crappy job feeling.

Oct 09, 2008

Watching the sun set knowing that you don't have to go to work the next day.

Oct 09, 2008

Walking through your Mom's front door and being able to smell each and every perfect dish she'll be serving you and your family for dinner.

Oct 10, 2008

Getting in the shower, forgetting something (like shaving cream) and having to jump out, wet and shiving, to go find said item. The moment you get back into the shower? Sheer bliss. (am I the only one who loves that feeling?)

Spending time with your husband and friends, looking around and thinking, this is what life is all about.

The moment of relief when you find out that the thing you have been worrying and stressing about? Not true.

Jerri Ann
Oct 10, 2008

Crawling into cool sheets in a cool dark room with a fan blowing on you knowing that the nap...the nap can last as long as you would like no else is home or due home for hours....

Oct 10, 2008

Great post! This is something that happened to me just the other day. Spent a nice evening with a guy who has potential to be boyfriend material, but not there yet. Left feeling good about the evening, but not exactly sure on how he felt. Got a text saying, "Had a great time with you tonight. Can't wait to get together again." Just what I needed to hear. That's a good feelin!

Oct 10, 2008

i would have to say, making a baby smile. when they are actually smiling AT YOU, or something you did... there's so much pride in that moment, you feel like you can do anything.
and the moment you sit down after you have cleaned your house from top to bottom.

i guess i have issues, huh?

p.s. i've been a lurker for some time - i really love your writing.

Oct 10, 2008

Singing in harmony with your daughter--now she's old enough to know how and loves it as much as you do.

Baby arms squeezing around your neck

Whispers in your ear that you are the best

Realizing you don't have to get out of bed--yes that is a marvelous one.

Oct 10, 2008

I just discovered your blog so I had to take the apartment tour...I LOVE YOUR APARTMENT!! Especially the camels and the elephant couch. And all the built-ins. And the pink KitchenAid mixer. It all made me drool...

Looking forward to reading the archives!

Oct 10, 2008

When my puppy, Webster, was teeny tiny and only about 10 weeks old, I used to love to put him down the front of my shirt and his little head would pop up and he'd snuggle up next to me and he'd be so happy and so full of love. It was just adorable and so precious to experience the perfect, innocent love of a puppy!

Oct 10, 2008

Sitting in front of a roaring fire whilst the wind howls outside.

Watching my husband tickle my son until they're both breathless with laughter.

Stepping from a chilly bathroom into a hot shower (although getting back *out* of the shower isn't nearly as pleasant).

Lovely post, Holly! It really is the small things that are important.

Oct 11, 2008

Saturday, noon time, when my baby boy falls asleep smiling and look so calm, and I sit down to read the newspaper.

Shallow - but when I wake up and my hair looks - just. right.

When I've done something good for someone and told no-one (except my blog) about it.

When I've just made love and I feel feminine all over.

Oct 11, 2008

when you wake up on Christmas morning and feel the weight of your stocking on your feet - most 28 year olds would not still be able to experience this, holly, so count yourself lucky that you do!

Sanguine Spice
Oct 13, 2008

Sticking the Q-tip ALL THE WAY IN.

The extra canister of milk shake.

Getting upgraded to business.

When the sales person walks you to the thing you're looking for - and then leaves you alone.

The smell of certain books.

Walking out from the tunnel into the baseball park.

Oct 13, 2008

-having 50 of your closest friends and family travel from all over the country (and from other countries) just to see you get married.

-marrying a man that you can't wait to see as a father and grow old with

-loving your brand new family more than words could express

-having 50 close friends and family general

- knowing the best is yet to come

-getting married in the mountains on the most beautiful weekend of the year...even when it rains on the wedding a small tucked away chapel.

- honeymooning....:)

-being 2 days into a marriage and being totally confident for the first time in a long time.

Oct 14, 2008

but kids, what about the opposite? when you wake up on saturday, roll around for a few extra minutes and then realise, IT'S NOT SATURDAY. it's not even CLOSE to saturday. instead, it's like, WEDNESDAY.

i've been having a few of those mornings lately...

Oct 15, 2008

These may already be on someone else's list, but:

Holding a brand new baby family member in your arms for the first time. That's got to be by far one of the loveliest feelings I've ever experienced.

Watching the lightbulb come on in a student's head.

Waking up to a sleeping cat pressed tightly against you.

Reading a story to my husband. The closeness we feel as we share the experience is pretty wonderful.

The pleasant feeling that washes over you as you compile a list of lovely feelings. I needed this today. Thank you.

Oct 16, 2008

Ilove this Holly - this was the perfect thing for me to do today so here are mine...

Crawling into a freshly made bed with clean sheets and realizing that the next day is Sunday and you can sleep in as late as you want.

Coming home after a long business trip to a waiting glass of wine and a hug that goes on for days

Walking on a gorgeous fall day hand-in-hand with your beloved, surrounded by amazing colours and crunching leaves and watching your dog discover leaves for the first time.

The first bite of Pumpkin pie at Thanksgiving

The feeling you have in the pit of your stomach on Christmas Eve

The smell after a good rain

When our dog climbs on the couch and lays his head in my lap and falls asleep.

Knowing that the man beside me is the one I was supposed to find and I get to sleep beside him for the rest of my life.