26 Weeks

First of all, thank you so much for your lovely, kind words on my last post. I hope it doesn't sound too cheesy to say this, but each one of your comments meant so much to me and really did go such a long way to helping me feel better. I'm trying to write back to everyone properly to say thank you for your thoughts and condolences, so if I haven't got to you yet, rest assured that I will. 

Each week, I try to take my pregnancy photo in front of something that indicates what's going on in my life at the time—whether it's a place I happened to have traveled to or the building site that is currently my backyard—and so it seemed a no-brainer, this week, to take it in front of the big blown-up photo of Omi I have in my home office, which is shortly to become Hamish's room, as soon as I can work up the energy to translate my lofty Pinterest pinning into something vaguely achievable in the next three months. (Eh, he can sleep in a desk drawer, right?) I'm not doing a huge amount to make the transition from office to nursery—sticking with the navy walls, using the white sleeper sofa in lieu of a glider—but the one thing I do know I want to keep is that giant picture of her up there, so that Hamish can grow up with his great-grandmother watching over him. Well, and also because I kind of nailed it to the wall and don't quite know how to get it down. 

If I look tired in this picture—and I do, plus the light's a little weird in there, which ain't doing anybody any favors—it's because I've got a new hobby, and this hobby is waking up six times a night. This is everso slightly different from my hobby at 19 weeks, which was waking up five times a night, but let me tell you, even that one extra time makes a huge difference to one's energy and productivity the next day. I try to tell myself it's just my very own version of a Couch to 5K programme, in that I'm slowly and steadily readying myself for the inevitable sleep deprivation that comes with new parenthood, but basically it's just because my bladder is the size of a quail's egg and I can't seem to sleep more than an hour and a half without needing to empty it.

I have, in general, really enjoyed being pregnant so far—low-level nausea of the first fifteen weeks notwithstanding—but the peeing thing is just....it's too much. I need to know where my nearest bathroom is at all times—I just moved to a new building at work, where it is pretty darn far, and today I caught myself weighing up the logistics of renting my own private PortaPotty—and, while I would like very much to see that new Ryan Gosling movie, The Place Beyond The Pines, I have decided there is absolutely no way in hell I can go to the movies anymore because that is, like, two hours I would have to sit still without getting up to excuse myself, which, at 26 weeks pregnant, just cannot be done. I'll wait for it on DVD. 

Apart from my fractured sleep patterns, my pregnancy seems to be ticking on fairly routinely so far, and I'm still feeling pretty good. The baby is kicking like crazy these days, and sometimes right before we go to sleep, Sean will lean over in bed and put his hand on my stomach and we'll just lie there together while our sweet boy wriggles and squirms and I'll say "Did you feel it? Did you feel that one?" and Sean will say "yep" and then we'll turn to each other and smile in the dark. I know it's probably going to get harder soon—that I'll get bigger and more tired and probably a little more anxious about what's to come—but for now, right now, I'm enjoying exactly where we are. 

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Tori
Apr 30, 2013

Have just caught up- you write so beautifully about your grandmother- I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely feel you on the six-times-a-night-thing. Current joy for me at 25.5 weeks; dead arms and hands from pins and needles carpel tunnel. Cannot count how many recalcitrant waterbottles I've knocked onto the floor at 4 am.

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Jane
Apr 30, 2013

I'm sorry for your loss Holly and meant to comment on your previous post. You wrote such a lovely tribute to your grandmother that it was evident you loved her a lot. Plus I think it's a sweet idea to keep her photo up in the nursery.

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Jen
Apr 30, 2013

You know, you may just love this pregnancy right up to the very end :)

Aside from some insomnia and general aches and pains I loved being pregnant. So many hate it but I loved it and I'm happy that it's treating you kindly too!

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Michelle
Apr 30, 2013

I have been following your blog since 2010 when we went to Seattle and I chanced upon your blog and asked you questions. Even though I don't have children, I have followed your weekly updates with glee and excitement...I cant wait to see all the baby showers/ birthday parties that you will host and the pictures!

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Anna Louisa
Apr 30, 2013

Ditto Jen...you seem so calm and happy that I think it could just carry you through! Don't give in to the random people "just-you-wait-ing" :)

www.anna-bird.com

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Meredith
Apr 30, 2013

There's always Run Pee (http://m.runpee.com/peeTime.php?return=false&key=732&title=The+Place+Bey...). I use this all the time, without the whole being-pregnant bit. I'm pretty sure if I ever am pregnant, I will have to pee approximately every 12 minutes.

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Shelley
Apr 30, 2013

It's funny how every body and every pregnancy is different. I never got up to pee with twins or a single baby ... but I did have a lot of Braxton Hicks all day long, making me worry I was going into premature labor!

I'm so happy for you two. Try as hard as you can to remember what it feels like to have a baby move inside you. It's the most wonderful thing and hard to recall later exactly how it felt.

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Käthe
Apr 30, 2013

My grandfather died before my first was born. Probably right around this time during pregnancy as well. I was so disappointed they'd never meet, but so happy he knew my baby was coming. Now we live in the house where he lived and died, and my second baby was born in the very place (our spare room) he and my grandmother both passed to the other side. It's funny how all the ends you think were ends get tied back into beginnings.

Keep Oma over Hammish. They'll need each other.

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Kristin H
Apr 30, 2013

Just wanted to say that I too woke up so many times at night to pee that once the baby came, I was actually getting *more* sleep than the months beforehand. And, a secret that no one told me, was that the 3-4 times I did have to get up with the baby, I actually didn't mind. I liked seeing her in the middle of the night! I missed her when she was asleep.

I'm so sorry about your grandmother. She sounds like an awesome lady.

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Kristen M.
Apr 30, 2013

My friend Hollee (her mother incorporated her aunt's name, Lee, into her name) was the first in our circle to have a baby. I was the second, a year and two days later. Naturally, I turned to her as my go-to expert for everything baby-related. I'd take a look at what she was going through or what stage she was at with her baby and wonder, how am I going to ---? She gave me the best piece of insight into life in general that I return to often: "Don't worry about what's coming next. Just don't worry, because you're not there yet. You're not ready. You're only ready for where you are."

It's true.

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Pretzel Thief
Apr 30, 2013

The "Did you feel it? Did you feel that one?" and the turning to each other and smiling in the dark...? SNIFF!

Wishing you oodles of health, Holly, to you, Hamish and Sean!

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Susan
Apr 30, 2013

I used to refuse to get up at night to pee. I would just will myself no to t think about it and go back to sleep. It worked but maybe because i am a nurse who worked 12 hour shifts and have a 10 liter bladder. But the movies- Titanic came out and was really a big deal when i was about 26 weeks pregnant and i knew i wouldnt be able to sit through it without getting up, and would have to miss something crucial.
Havent seen it to this day.
So sorry about the grandmother.

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Shes
May 01, 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss. We call my German grandmother 'Oma'.....I hadn't heard of 'Omi', but I love it! She has now moved on to Great-Oma status, as my parents have become the new Oma and Opa as all of us kids have our own kids. I wish you all the best as you finish out the weeks left! Your belly is still so cute and tiny (and pointy!). And your basoombas are taking over...hehe. Best Wishes!

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niobe19
May 01, 2013

Sincerest condolences to you for your great loss my dear. I was deeply moved by your tribute to your Omi. She is ravishing in the large poster. I remember when you first posted your office how I thought she looked so classically beautiful and glamorous. I see a lot of her in YOU. I hope that comforts you to know. She would be very proud of your reverence for her and your choosing to surround Hamish with her presence. Simply lovely of you. Also, glad to see you and Sean are able to completely be aware of how special this time is for you! Thanks for sharing your journey. You are both awesome.

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Melissa
May 01, 2013

You look wonderful! Sleep deprivation is still a challenge for me (son turns 4 (!!!) on Monday, daughter will be 2 in early July). They're pretty good about making it through the night (that sound you hear is me knocking on wood...or my skull...because that's close enough...) these days, but one or the other generally needs help settling or just wakes me up over the monitor at least a few times a week.

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Jo
May 01, 2013

Movie theaters during pregnancy? Ha! It's your last time to get out to them for some time before having a a baby when you realize it's just not worth it.

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jill
May 01, 2013

I sincerely love that photo of your grandmother. I think every woman should have a glamorous b/w photo of themselves.

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Marcheline
May 02, 2013

Just count it a blessing that your hooters are growing faster than your tummy is! 8-)

P.S. Thought you'd get a(nother) "kick" out of the fact that my word captcha is "@ma@da"... which will be Hamish's first words!

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